Sunday, October 25, 2009

Yeah...opps...

Well here I am...Still living..still not losing weight...still need too...still...still.still...


I know I know..I need to get my butt going...I will I promise. Soon...


I know soon..I have said that before..and I have meant it before...

I know I know...


Taking it one day at a time..

EMP

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Progeress

For a change...no news is good news. I am actually doing well...really well. I have lots 10 pounds in two weeks. I am so pumped. It hasn't been easy..but I am doing it. I have been working out really hard, and eating better. Still need to work on the eating, but slowly it is getting there. I still have days when I just eat the wrong stuff. And I know I am eating the wrong stuff...and I really don't care.

I love my armband. It has really helped me see that I wasn't moving around during the day as much as I thought. I find myself doing laps around inside my house just to get more movement in. I fell guilty if I am sitting still. I love having the instant data about how many calories I am burning versus how many I am eating.

Goals for this week.

1. Work out everyday-introduce even more running on the treadmill.
2. Eat Better-don't go over the calorie allotment for the day.
3. Reach 5000 steps at least a day.
4. Lose 4 pounds!

Wish me Luck!

EMP

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Doing well.....

Things are going good here. I am wearing my new GoWear armband and I totally love it. It has really helped to motivate me to move more. I love being able to plug it in and see my progress. I am even doing well logging my food, even if I am embarrassed about what I ate that day!

I am seeing a little movement on the scale and that makes me really happy! I will take any movement in the right direction. I am not wanting things to go fast. I know that slow and steady wins the race and I am in for a marathon. But I really am hopeful that it is going to happened this time.

On the other side of life...things are stressful so it is hard not to comfort eat. We are getting ready to make a huge move and we don't have too much time to get everything together. Me and stress don't get along that well. So the next few months are really going to be a test of my will power. I am really lucky to have a husband that will do anything for me, and he wants the best for me so I know he will be there with me every step of the way. He is even eating healthier foods. They haven't all be that tasty, but he is trying them all with me..and I love him for that.

I guess that is about all for now...

Wish me Luck...

EMP

Friday, July 10, 2009

Keep Moving....

That is my new motto. I wore my GoWear yesterday. I LOVE IT! I didn't wear it today because I need I bigger band for it. Yes I have big arms. I have ordered a new band for it..and I hope it will be here next week. Then I will be good to go.

I have enjoyed logging my food...well I did until I got to the end of the day and actually so how many calories I ate. OPPS...really need to work on that. It was very bad! I am going to sit down this weekend and really plan my eating for next week. I want to get some better for you snacks in the house. I have a few new cook books to go through that are Healthy cookbooks..so that is exciting..I love to try new meals.

I worked out with my Wii yesterday..and boy was I sore today. I loved it. I miss being sore because I know it means I did something yesterday!

I tried to ride my exercise bike...but my feet were hurting...they have never hurt on the bike before...so I think it was left over from the Wii..because you don't wear shoes on the Wii Fit board. Anyways...at least I did something so that made me happy.

I will be back on the Wii Fit board tomorrow...and we will see how it goes..


till then...

EMP

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Off the wagon....but still trying...

I am so far off the wagon...that I can't even see it in the distance. Yes I am back...and Yes I am going to try this again. I am going to do my best to catch up to the wagon and Jump back on with both feet.

I have been super busy the past few months, and even though things don't seem to be calming down I have to do something about my health. I am now on blood pressure medicine, and I don't really like it. I know that it is what I need to do for me. But it still makes me angry. I think it has helped. I was feeling dizzy and light headed sometimes, but since taking the medicine that has gone away. I am going to a blood pressure check tomorrow so I am hoping for good news.

The bad news is the past few weeks I have gained about 5 pounds. We were on vacation and it is really hard to eat right and exercise while on vacation. Not that it is over I am back to working out. And eating better.

I have a new tool to help me. I splurged and bought the GoWearfit armband. It will help monitor my activity and calories burned. With the help of the website I will also be logging my food again. That is scary for me. I am going to try not to cheat, which I have done in the past. I will make a pledge to log everything I eat...no cheating.

I thought I was serious about this before. But I guess I wasn't as serious as I thought. I really want to do this now because I don't want to be a slave to medicine for the rest of my life. There is so much I want to do and I know that my weight and self esteem is holding me back. I can't let that happened anymore. I owe it to my Husband, but most importantly I owe it to myself to be the best I can be.

Wish me Luck!

EMP

Saturday, April 25, 2009

The Chia Seeds have Arriaved!

I finally got my Chia Seeds yesterday, and started taking them immediately! I think I am going to like them. It seemed to take a while for them to 'kick in' or fill up in my belly. But once they did I was never really hungry. I have to learn that just because food is on the table doesn't mean I have to eat it all. I ate a bit too much at dinner last night and boy was my tummy aching after a little while. I did better at breakfast today to limit the food I was going to eat. I was still full but ate about half of what I normally would. That was nice. I ate breakfast about four hours ago and don't feel the least bit hungry right now. It is a nice feeling..different but nice. I hope this is really going to be the jumping off point for me. I just need that little boost to get me on my way.

Things in my life are stressful right now. I know my blood pressure is high so I really hope I can gt this weight to start coming off to help that. It is almost to the point where I need to see the dreaded Doctor to get some blood pressure meds to help me out while I try to let the seeds do their magic (they are also full of all kinds of goodness to help with blood pressure).

Anyway I have taken my day one weight and will let you know when things start moving in the right direction. Hopefully it will be soon. I really need this right now. I really need something to go right in my world!

EMP

Monday, April 20, 2009

Chugging along...

Today has been a pretty good day. I have gone for a walk with the hubby and then have spent the day cleaning my house. I have been eating really well lately. Well at least well for me. So I am happy with that. I feel like I am in a pretty good spot right the moment.

I am hoping the Chia Seeds get here to help boost my energy levels. The next few weeks are going to be super busy. And I am going to need all the help I can get. I keep hearing wonderful stories about people who have tired these seeds and I can't wait to see if they help me like they are help others.

Here's hoping...

EMP

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Waiting for my package...

I am waiting for my Chia Seeds to get here. I am really anxious because I keep hearing other people that are having such good results with them in the weight loss area. I just hope that this is the thing that give me the jump start that I am really needing. I really do feel is I start to see some sort of result then I will really feel good about things and it will motivate me to do more.

Things are so crazy in my life right now. I don't feel like I have time to do what needs to be done. I am functioning at a super high stress level and I know that it isn't good for me. I know that things are going to calm down...I just have to be patient.

When I get my seeds I will post more about all that...

EMP

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Two in one day...

I have been hearing good things about Chia Seeds and all the great benefits that come with it. I have ordered them from Amazon.com and will be giving them a shot. They claim to help reduce blood pressure and help keep you full so you don't over eat. I am willing to try almost anything so after my hubby and I researched some we agreed that I should give this a shot. People have been losing weight with the help of these seeds...so here I got. It can't hurt right?

EMP

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Here we go again,

I have a fridge full of fruits and Veggies, and I plan of attack for this weeks eating. I am feeling pretty good about it all. Things are still busy around here. Just had some family leave...and are getting ready for more to show up. I have to keep up with the working out along with all the other stuff that is going on.

My Asthma has been acting lately. My breathing is not so good. I have gain a big chunk of weight with this last set of company and that isn't good for me. It seems like the weight settles on my lungs making it hard to breathe which makes it hard to feel like doing anything. Hopefully it will all get better soon.

I think my body is revolting on me these days. It seems like there are alot of little things that keep going wrong. At some point I am going to have to decided if I want to brave a trip to the Doctor to try to get some help, but it really never seems like a good time to go. I keep hoping that it is all just the stress of life right now, and that when life calms down it will get better. The only problem is it doesn't look like that is going to happen anytime soon.

I am just trying to take things one day at a time. That is all I can really do right now.

EMP

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Still here....

I am still here..still trying to do this whole weight loss thing...but having a house of company has really thrown me off track. They will be leaving soon and I will be back to my normal schedule and hopefully things will start looking up then. I just wanted to update that I am still committed...even if I am not doing so well now..

EMP

Saturday, March 28, 2009

I am here...

I am still here..and still committed...just been super busy today...but it was a good day. I tried to eat the best I could. We had some people over for dinner tonight and that was fun. Just need some sleep and back to it in the morning...

EMP

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Trying to find my way...

I know I didn't post yesterday, when I started this I wanted to try to post everyday. Yesterday just seemed to slip away from me. I did pretty good yesterday, I worked out really hard. Still need to ramp up the working out. I ate pretty well. So it was all pretty decent.

Today is going well so far. Just got done working out, going to do some cleaning so that will burn a few more calories. My big problem today is I don't know what I am eating for Lunch. I want to figure that out before I hit the kitchen so I know exactly what I am doing and I won't be searching and nibbling while I try to sort it all out.

Things have been stressful here so I am trying really hard to to eat my way through the stress. This is huge for me. I am used to going to food for comfort, so this is a big change. Some days it works and some days it doesn't. I just want more days that it works.

We are going to be having company for the next few weeks so that is going to be fun, but at the same time I will be doing more cooking and more eating out. I have to find time to get in some type of work out. It is going to be hard...but it will all be ok too. I look forward to having Hubby off work that will be nice.

I am going to start weighing in on Fridays. So tomorrow will be the first day. I am scare to see where I am at right now. But it will also me good to know how far I have to do. I will be posting all those numbers...gotta keep myself honest even though it scares the crap out of me!

EMP

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Day Seven....Falling off the wagon..

Yes already things are not going well. I don't know what it was about today but I just couldn't get in the grove or the mood to do anything. I was a slug all day. I didn't work out and I didn't eat good, that bread and Mayo I just couldn't say no. I was emotional eating. I know, but even knowing didn't help. The sad part is I am not sure what happened today. I just woke up in a strange mood and it never got better. I am not going to let this derail me. I am just going to have to jump back into it tomorrow. I know I can't have many days like today and still succeed. I have to figure out what was going on today and try to figure out what I could have done differently. There is alot going on in my life these days, but I need to transfer that into energy not lethargy. All in all I still feel positive and hopeful about what I am trying to do. If I can just hang on to that hope then maybe I will make it this time..


EMP

Monday, March 23, 2009

Day Six..Getting in the groove....

Today has been an okay day. I did about half the working out that I wanted to, but it seems like real life gets in the way sometimes. I have done pretty good on eating I think. Trying my best to stay away from bread, cheese and Mayo, but it really is a struggle knowing that they are there and so easy to get to. I have actually made my self clean things today so that I wouldn't eat. I have to just push through and get over this first hump of not eating as much. It will get easier as I go. It has too. I have to work hard this evening at not being cranky towards the hubby because I am hungry. It isn't his fault. Anyways, that is where I am right now.

EMP

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Day Five, Time for the Why Now...

So the question of the day is why now? Why have I started this whole blog about getting healthy now. Well the answer is simple.

A few months ago I had a health scare. I ended up in the emergency room with chest pains. I am only 30 years old..that should not be happening to me. Thankfully all the test came back ok. When I had a follow up visit with my primary care Doctor I was informed that my blood pressure was on the high side. He gave me a few weeks to diet and exercise to see if I can't bring it down with out medicines. So it has not been a few months..and I am afraid to go back and see him again (stupid I know) but I didn't do what I was supposed to do. Even knowing that my health was at risk didn't kick my butt into gear and get the whole workout thing going like I should. How stupid am I?

So that is part of why I decided to blog. I feel that if I put my intentions out in the cyber space it will help me do what I need to do. I don't want to be stupid and not lose weight and have something happened to me that I can prevent. I don't want to leave my husband. I want to grow old with him.

Thankfully I have a hugely supportive husband. He loves me the way I am, but knows that I really don't like myself this way. We are going to work on this together. That will help me, because I never want to let him down.

So that is why I want to do this. I have tried so many times, but I have never even told anyone that I was trying so that if I failed they wouldn't know.

Tomorrow starts the big change. I have already started working out everyday, but tomorrow will start the better eating and the more exercise. Also on this lovely blog tomorrow I will outline what my goals are for working out everyday. I have to be held accountable. I know I can do it this time. It feels different for some reason.

EMP

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Nice Quite Day Four...

So Far today has been nice. Went for a bike ride with the hubby, and now we are going to settle in to watch some television. I really can't think of a more perfect day. Relaxing with my Hubby...ahhh...Sweet!


EMP

Friday, March 20, 2009

Day Three...

Here we are on Day Three of this thrilling Blog. So I think I am going to treat this blog like therapy. Anything I have on my chest I am going to get it off here. The biggest topic these days for me is weight loss. I know fun topic, but it is true. I have issues, BIG issues, and I think (I hope) I am ready to finally deal with them.

I have done the weight loss things a few times. I am hoping this will be the last time I start trying to lose weight. About a year ago I did really well and lost about 40 pounds in 4 months. Not too shabby, but since then I have gain about 15 or so of that back. I don't mind the working out part. I just have issues with the whole eating right thing. I love food, and I love to cook. I have a Husband that loves to eat the food that I cook. So I have to figure out how to cook healthier meals that we both like to eat and to eat smaller portions of the foods that aren't so good. I have read many books on what I should and shouldn't be doing. Now I just have to start doing it. That really is the hardest part the actual doing of the right things. It is really hard to give up the way I eat now. I love all the foods I cook, I mean if I didn't why would I waste my time to cook them.

Since I started rambling about food, I guess I will talk about the foods that I just don't need to keep in my house. If there are here...I will eat them..too much of them. So here is a list...

1. Peanut Butter- I love this stuff. I can eat it out of the jar with a spoon! I love to toast some bread and just eat Peanut butter and bread. My hubby finally figured this out..and I am happy to report that I have been off the butter for two months now, and yes I miss it.

2. Bread- I am a breadaholic. If there is bread in the house..I will eat it. I do try to get the healthy bread..so that is a good thing, it is kinda surprising that my hubby hasn't asked why we run out of bread so fast.

3. Mayo-I know I know..it is really bad for you. But I LOVE me some Mayo. Like the Peanut butter I can slather it on the before mentioned bread and eat just Mayo and bread. I know..it is SOOO wrong..but I really can't seem to stop myself. I need to ditch the Mayo. I really do.

4. Chocolate- I really don't keep much in my house so that is a good thing. We do eat mostly Dark Chocolate, which is better for you. That isn't too bad I guess.

5. Cheese- I love cheese, all types of cheese. I love cheese on bread with Mayo (See a pattern here?)

I guess there are my Top five go to when I need a food fix. When I lost that weight a year ago, I didn't have any of those things in my house. If it wasn't here I didn't eat it. I have a really hard time with self control. I get a craving in my head and that is all I think about until I eat whatever it is I am craving. It doesn't matter how much other food I eat, until I eat the food I am craving I will still think I am hungry (told you I have issues).

So see, I need to figure out some things, and I am hoping that talking them out will help me. In the next few days I will explain why now. And get into goal and dreams.

Thanks for Listening...

EMP

Thursday, March 19, 2009

A busy Day Two...

Well today is day two of this little journey, and it is a busy day. I am getting closer to figuring this whole deal out and hope to soon be brave enough to say what I feel like I need to say. I know very cryptic. I guess in the big scheme of life what I have to say isn't that important. But to me it is. I really don't even care if anyone reads what I write. I think just writing it and having it out there will be helpful to me. And that really is the purpose for this blog.

EMP

Day One...

This is the first day of putting myself out there. I am still not sure what this blog will turn out to be. I have some ideas, but nothing concrete as of yet. I think it is going to take some time to figure it all out. So bear with me as I stumble through this new world...

EMP