So happy...

I am so happy with my progress, But aslo so worried about Christmas Time.  Our family celebrations start on Saturday and won't end until Christmas Day.  That is a lot of days of crazy Christmas foods!  I know I won't be able to eat like I have been the last two week, I just hope I find the strength in me to not over eat by too much.  I have lost 9 pounds in two weeks and I really don't want to undo that work.    I am going to enlist the hubby to help me try to stay on track at Christmas. Hopefully between both of us I don't cause too much damage to my progress. 
   I am actually looking forward to starting working out again when we are done with Christmas.  I feel like I am getting a handle on eating right and want to start adding in some walking.  I am taking baby steps this time in hopes that I will be able to complete this journey.  

Merry Christmas all!

Till Then,
EMP

Small Victory...

Today I went out to run some errands.  I just happened to be out at lunch time.  My Small Victory was not stopping at some fast food joint and picking up a burger.  I came home and ate my Salad like a good girl!

For me that is a huge victory...but for most a small.

I am proud of  me.  

Till then...
EMP

One Week Down...

     Well Week one of better eating was a success.  I lost 5 pounds this week just by making changes in my diet and couldn't be more thrilled.   It wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be.  I think it is because I didn't exercise this week just started eating less.  I think one of the things in the past that has been hard was starting dieting and exercise all at the same time.  This time I have decided to get my body used to eating less before I add the exercise.  What used to happen with starting both at the same time is that I would be starving because I wasn't used to eating few calories on top of burning all the extra ones.  It made for one cranky girl!

    I am still trying to figure out how to eat better on the weekends.  It hard when the hubby is home all day to make good choices.  We normally only eat two meals each day on the weekends.  A big breakfast and then an early dinner, now I just have to learn to make better choices in those meals.

   Christmas is next week and we are off to do the Family thing which means lots of food and fun.  I am hopefully that I can find some control somewhere in myself to make good choices. 

Wish Me Luck..cause I am gonna need it!


Merry Christmas!

Till then,
EMP

Where to begin?

     I haven't posted in a LONG time.  I know this.  I have been struggling so much for months now.  It seems like any little thing puts me off the right path these days.  I am always saying I will start eating better and working out on  "x day" but then that day comes and it is so much easier to eat the wrong things and find stupid reasons not to work out. 
     What sucks the most is I know what I should be doing.  I am just choosing not to do the right things.  I know that I feel better when I am eating right and exercising.   Am I that lazy?  I guess for the past few month the answer is yes. I am that lazy. 
    I know it is really stupid to try to start eating better befor the Holidays but here I am trying.  I really hope this isn't just a way for me to set myself up for failure, but I feel like I can't wait another day.
   So why now.  Well let me tell ya.  I went shopping last week and everywhere you look there are these cute boots...and you know what I can't wear any of them.  My calves are too fat for the boot trend.  That was so demoralizing.  Even boots with "wide Calf" don't fit me.   So what am I gonna do...
   Well I went  grocery shopping today.  I bought healthy foods.  (lost of veggies and fish and chicken)  I came home and made my breakfast for this week (cause if I didn't do it now I would just go for the toast and peanut butter or cheese).  And the whole time I am thinking this really sucks.  I wish I knew why it was such a struggle for me to lose weight when I see other people eating what ever they want and never gaining a pound.  So I had my self a pity party and good cry and came up here to type. 
  The next step is to go dig out my treadmill and elliptical.  That way when it is time to work out there will be one less excuse as to why I can't.  I have to find a way to stop the excuses. 
    As I sit here, weigh the most I ever had in my life.  I hope and pray that this is the last time I say that.  I have had success in the past.  I just need to have success in the future!


Till then...

EMP

What a pain in the knee...

I am going to say something I thought I would never say.   I miss working out.   I was doing really good with the Julian Michaels 30 Day shred.  I was looking forward to doing it everyday.  I was even feeling better and seeing my body changing.  It was great.  That was until last week when my knee decided to go out on me. Crap.  I spent last weekend babying it and on Monday did a modified workout.  I didn't do all the jumping jacks and butt kickers and that sorta thing.  I still got a good workout in, but the next morning I realized I had to take a break and rest my knee.  Now here it is Friday and everyday I want to be able to work out, but my knee won't let me.  I am giving it over the weekend and if it isn't better I am going to get it checked out.  I never thought I would be one of those people who enjoyed working out, but for a short while I was.
  The thing that is bothering me the most is I know I am not going to make my first goal.  That sucks.  I was on track to do so good.  Now I feel like I am back to square one. I know that I need to take care of my knee, I know that.  It is just hard to loose all that good progress.  I need to figure out something to do that won't put pressure on my knee, but even riding a stationary bike wasn't fun.
 The next few months are going to be crazy around here.  Fun but crazy.  I need to be pain free to get through them.  Here's to hoping my knee cooperates with me..

Till then...
EMP

Day 2 of 30 day shred...

30 day shred kicked my butt yet again.  But I liked.  I feel like I did a bit more than yesterday.  Right now my arms and leg are still shaking. That's some good stuff there.

EMP

30 day shred

Did day one of Jillian Michaels' 30 Day shred.  It kicked my butt...can't wait to do day two tomorow.  That is if I can move :)

Till then...
EMP

I know I have been MIA for a while now.  Things are very stressful and emotional in my house right now.  I have been working out pretty good, but the stress eating is hampering my progress. 
I am trying to let things go and not stress out so much.  We will see if that works. 
I am starting  Julian Michaels 30 Day shred today.  I am a little nervous but excited.  I have heard so many good things about it.  I also heard that it will Kick your butt, which is something that I really need right now.   I am hoping that a good sweat will help relieve some stress.  We will see how it goes.  I will let you know!

'Till then...
EMP

Weigh in day change....

I made the decision to change my weigh in day. I changed to Fridays, because having in on Monday was a real bummer.  I work hard all week, but as I said in  Monday's blog the weekends are hard for me eating wise.  I am hoping knowing how much I have lost will inspire me to eat better over the weekend. We will see I guess.
  Anyways this week has been good. I have started trying to run some.  That has been exciting.  I am going to have a good weekend.  I will do my best to make good food choices and try to get in some exercise other than cleaning the house..which can be a chore in itself!
  All that being said...I lost a pound this week. I am not looking for Biggest Loser numbers, but I was hoping for more.  That makes 4 pounds so far! I will take it and keep going!

'Till then,
EMP

Weekends...

  Weekends are hard for me.  I don't workout like I should.  I don't eat like I should (but I did cook all weekend so no eating out).  I am pretty active doing things with the hubby so that is good, but I need to do more.  I need to workout at least once on the weekends and be more mindful of what I am eating.       
   Needless to say that this mornings weigh in not so stellar!  I am proud of myself in one way.  I am not letting this one bad weigh in get me down.  In  the past I would have thrown my hands in the air and given up, but not this time.  I hit the treadmill hard this morning and I am planning my second workout for today.  I ate a good breakfast and I am ready to tackle this day.
 I am having issues with my Fitbit.   It just stopped working.  I haven't had it that long.  I am waiting to hear from the Fitbit people.  I hope that get back to me soon.  I have to to rely on the instant feed back from the Fitbit to keep me motivated.  I love seeing how many steps and how many calories I have burned.  I find myself going to check it even though I am not wearing it. :(   Please Fitbit pepople get back to me soon!
  My goal this week is to get a good plan in shape for next weekend. There are lots of changes coming up in my life. I just need to focus on me and what my goals are in the weight loss.

'till then...
EMP

LIttle Changes...

The little changes I started out making last week added up to a three pound loss.  I am pleased.  I am hoping for the same this week.  And I am making more little changes.  They already started with a harder workout yesterday.   I am happy that the little changes are working.  I don't think I could be able to handle huge changes right now.  I think in the past part of my problem has been trying to change everything all at once and I felt overwhelmed and hungry all the time.  That made me cranky and no fun.  With the little changes I still feel hungry, but I am not cranky.  That is a good thing.
 Goal for this week.  To keep it up.  Push the exercise a little more and just have patience with myself, and my progress.

'till then...
EMP

Good week.

I think it has been a good week.  I mean I did what I was supposed to do.  I ate good for the most part.  I did some working out.  I am pleased.  I mean for the first week things weren't so bad.  I need to bump up the exercise a bit and that will keep happening as I go along. 
I need to find some energy. That would be nice.  The week has been long and not enough sleep.  Hopefully next week will be better.  Each week will be better..

'till then..
EMP

Breakfast...

Day Two is starting out with me being hungry. Breakfast has always been hard for me.  I never know what I should eat. Cereal doesn't last long, so  I am usually starving within a hour of eating breakfast.  I normally eat toast, but most of the time it turns into a grilled cheese sandwich (I am a cheeseaholic).  So I have been looking around for quick easy breakfast ideas.  Today will be the first day that I try one of those new recipes.  Wish me luck...

'till then
EMP

Getting started...again....

So today is my start day.  I have so far made good food choices.  I went grocery shopping to fill the house will good for me foods. I did my weigh in.  I set my fitbit goals, so I am ready to go.  I am starting simple.  I have a 32 pound goal to hit by April 20th.  That is about 2 pounds a week.  Totally doable.  I am cautiously optimistic.  I know that I have to change the way I eat. I am working hard a making what I eat things that my hubby will like too.  I know for this to work I am going to have to spend more time fixing  meals.  That should not be a problem because I LOVE to cook!  I am making some small changes and will go from there.  I think my problems has been making too many changes too fast...

Here's to hoping and praying that this finally works!....

'till then...
EMP

A new year...

I just looked back and saw that I started this blog in 2009.  Wow.  I can't believe that.  I had such high hopes.  I should be in a better place with my weight.  I have no one to blame but me.  I am the Queen of Excuses.  I don't even give myself a chance to succeed in what I try.  I have unreasonable expectations.  I want everything to happen too fast, and if it doesn't then I get discouraged.  I need to work on changing my thought process.

I didn't want to restart a work out/eating healthy track  this week.   I didn't want it to be a New Years resolution that I did nothing with.    I am spending this week reading some books and getting my place together.  Starting Monday I am on it.  It is going to be a long road. I hope and pray that I can do it this time.

We shall see...

'till then...
EMP