Well I finally broke down and hit the scale yesterday. I was so sure it was going to be horrible. I mean I haven't worked out in weeks. Haven't been watching what I eat too closely. Been sick..so on and so forth. But it wasn't too bad. I had gained some weight, but it was only 2 pounds so that wasn't horrible. It even made me feel like working out. So I did. I was proud of myself. Things are still the same. But that is ok I guess. One day at a time right? We will just take baby steps.
I still feel fat and ugly. I know that I am...but I hate feeling that way. When I was able to work out consistently I felt better, but it was one of those things that I didn't really realize until I wasn't doing it anymore. I think that knowing that is one of my baby steps I mentioned. The next baby step I would love to take is to get rid of this cough that way I would feel like working out. It is hard to get motivated when you feel like you are going to cough up a lung. I know getting over being sick takes time, but I am ready to be well so that I can get healthy!