Still Trying to get over this Crud that I have. It has been hanging in there for a while now. Not fun at all. I get tired just walking to the mailbox. While it is hanging in I have no energy to do anything. I and starting to get into a funk, and that makes me eat more than I should. It is a hideous cycle that I can't seem to break. Every time I feel like I am making some headway something else comes up to mess we up. There is so much that I wish I could do that I just can't because the weight is holding me back, but I just really can't seems to shake it. It has been with me most of my life and I feel like it will always be with me. I don't want to be like this. I know it isn't good for me. I know I need to lose weight. I know. I just can't seem to do. And it is so frustrating. I know all the right things to do. I know what I shouldn't be eating. I know I should be getting more exercise. But is just isn't happening. There is a huge difference between knowing that to do and actually doping it. I have the knowing part down pat. And I can do the doing part for a little while. I just really want the whole trying to lose weight thing to be done. It is all that I have been trying to do for years, and I feel like such a failure! When all you do is fail, It gets even harder to try!
I Just want this one thing. Everything else in my life is pretty good. I Just want to lose weight. I just need to stop trying...and do...