So happy...

I am so happy with my progress, But aslo so worried about Christmas Time.  Our family celebrations start on Saturday and won't end until Christmas Day.  That is a lot of days of crazy Christmas foods!  I know I won't be able to eat like I have been the last two week, I just hope I find the strength in me to not over eat by too much.  I have lost 9 pounds in two weeks and I really don't want to undo that work.    I am going to enlist the hubby to help me try to stay on track at Christmas. Hopefully between both of us I don't cause too much damage to my progress. 
   I am actually looking forward to starting working out again when we are done with Christmas.  I feel like I am getting a handle on eating right and want to start adding in some walking.  I am taking baby steps this time in hopes that I will be able to complete this journey.  

Merry Christmas all!

Till Then,
EMP

Small Victory...

Today I went out to run some errands.  I just happened to be out at lunch time.  My Small Victory was not stopping at some fast food joint and picking up a burger.  I came home and ate my Salad like a good girl!

For me that is a huge victory...but for most a small.

I am proud of  me.  

Till then...
EMP

One Week Down...

     Well Week one of better eating was a success.  I lost 5 pounds this week just by making changes in my diet and couldn't be more thrilled.   It wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be.  I think it is because I didn't exercise this week just started eating less.  I think one of the things in the past that has been hard was starting dieting and exercise all at the same time.  This time I have decided to get my body used to eating less before I add the exercise.  What used to happen with starting both at the same time is that I would be starving because I wasn't used to eating few calories on top of burning all the extra ones.  It made for one cranky girl!

    I am still trying to figure out how to eat better on the weekends.  It hard when the hubby is home all day to make good choices.  We normally only eat two meals each day on the weekends.  A big breakfast and then an early dinner, now I just have to learn to make better choices in those meals.

   Christmas is next week and we are off to do the Family thing which means lots of food and fun.  I am hopefully that I can find some control somewhere in myself to make good choices. 

Wish Me Luck..cause I am gonna need it!


Merry Christmas!

Till then,
EMP

Where to begin?

     I haven't posted in a LONG time.  I know this.  I have been struggling so much for months now.  It seems like any little thing puts me off the right path these days.  I am always saying I will start eating better and working out on  "x day" but then that day comes and it is so much easier to eat the wrong things and find stupid reasons not to work out. 
     What sucks the most is I know what I should be doing.  I am just choosing not to do the right things.  I know that I feel better when I am eating right and exercising.   Am I that lazy?  I guess for the past few month the answer is yes. I am that lazy. 
    I know it is really stupid to try to start eating better befor the Holidays but here I am trying.  I really hope this isn't just a way for me to set myself up for failure, but I feel like I can't wait another day.
   So why now.  Well let me tell ya.  I went shopping last week and everywhere you look there are these cute boots...and you know what I can't wear any of them.  My calves are too fat for the boot trend.  That was so demoralizing.  Even boots with "wide Calf" don't fit me.   So what am I gonna do...
   Well I went  grocery shopping today.  I bought healthy foods.  (lost of veggies and fish and chicken)  I came home and made my breakfast for this week (cause if I didn't do it now I would just go for the toast and peanut butter or cheese).  And the whole time I am thinking this really sucks.  I wish I knew why it was such a struggle for me to lose weight when I see other people eating what ever they want and never gaining a pound.  So I had my self a pity party and good cry and came up here to type. 
  The next step is to go dig out my treadmill and elliptical.  That way when it is time to work out there will be one less excuse as to why I can't.  I have to find a way to stop the excuses. 
    As I sit here, weigh the most I ever had in my life.  I hope and pray that this is the last time I say that.  I have had success in the past.  I just need to have success in the future!


Till then...

EMP