Sleepy....

Today is going ok.  I am so Tired....I could just fall asleep.  I was sleeping so go when that stupid alarm when off. Oh well.  Lots to do today and for the next few weeks.  After that I really hope that things clam down a little 2011 has started off with too much activities.  It is really been busy and the days are just flying by.  I can't believe it.  Oh well. 

Anyways off to get things done.

Til then,
EMP

One of those days....

I am having one of those days.  You know those days where things just don't seem to be happening the way you plan.  Well that is me today.  I don't really know when things got off track but the are.  I am just kinda sitting around staring off into space and just plain not doing anything. I have no energy no get up and go.  I don't even want to watch t.v.  It really sad, because life is pretty good these days.  I just feel like I am going trough the motions, and not really enjoying it.

I have been battling some type of bug for a few weeks and that has left me tired and cranky.  It seems like this bug got into my system at Christmas and isn't let me go yet.  Every time I start to feel better it attacks again and knocks me down.

It feels like nothing is getting done around my house unless I do it.  I just don't have to will to get things done right now, but I also hate living in the cluttered mess that my home has become.

I did start working out again at the first of the year.  It is going ok.  Even being sick I try to get on the treadmill or bike.  I am enjoying the working out more because we now have a T.V. in our work out room so I am more entertained while working out.  That has helped so much so I am very happy about that.  I just need to get better and have life settle down a bit so I can get into a good routine. 

I guess I just need to settle into a routine.  That would make me happy.  Right now things are just so busy and I hate that I feel like I am running around like crazy and never getting anything done.

Things will get better I do believe that.  I just hope they get better soon...

Til then...
EMP

Early Morning walk!

So got up this morning and went for a walk while the hubby was taking a jog.  It was totally against my will.  Early mornings and cold don't make for a very happy me. But once it was done I felt ok.  I mean it wasn't even 7 am and I had already done 20 minutes of exercise.  Can't beat that now can you. 

I didn't quite get to 5000 steps yesterday. I will today. I figured out how many steps I need each hour that I am awake to get to that.  It is like 420 so that seems do able.  I will just have to walk around the house a few times..not big deal!

Eating was ok yesterday.  I did well considering it was date night. Will do better today. 

After while when I am more awake I am going to get on the exersice bike.  Do a little reading and a little peddling..sounds like fun.

Slow and steady...

Til Then..
EMP

Treadmill...

Just spent some quality time with the treadmill.  That was interesting after a long time apart.  So for day on,going along with the slow and steady concept,  I did a mile in 23 minutes.  Not too shabby.  Not too great.  While on the treadmill I did set my first exercise goal.  I want to do a mile in 20 minutes.  I think that is very manageable.  Once I hit that one, I will set a new one.  Slow and Steady. 

Untill then.
EMP

Back on the wagon again..Hopefully

So here I am again.  Trying this whole weight loss thing....again.  It is so hard.  I know I have picked a hard time to get started again with the Holidays coming, But I knew if I didn't start now then I would just keep eating and keep getting bigger then in the new year things would be even harder. So here I start again. 

I don't really have any grand plans this time.  I am going to move more and eat less and better.  I started to move more part yesterday.  I am adding the eat less today.  I have also decided to try to cut down on the sugar I eat.  I know I can't cut it all out.  I know me too well, but I know that I can eat less sugar everyday.  I don't drink much soda anyway so cutting that out won't be hard, but I am from the South so giving up my sweet tea...well now I just don't know about that.  I am going to do some research into the whole fake sugar stuff.  In the past I wasn't totally impressed  with Splenda but now there are so many more new products to try. 

I am starting to wear my arm band again. That really did help me last time.  I have set smaller goals for myself this time.  I think I was looking to big picture in the past.  Now it is going to be slow and steady I hope.

Well it is off to the treadmill. 
The goal for today in 5000 steps at least. (I know it should be 10,000 but I am starting slow remember)

Will fill you in tomorrow on how it all works out!

EMP

Not as bad as I thought...

Well I finally broke down and hit the scale yesterday.  I was so sure it was going to be horrible.  I mean I haven't worked out in weeks.  Haven't been watching what I eat too closely.  Been sick..so on and so forth.  But it wasn't too bad.  I had gained some weight, but it was only 2 pounds so that wasn't horrible. It even made me feel like working out.  So I did.  I was proud of myself.  Things are still the same.  But that is ok I guess.  One day at a time right?  We will just take baby steps. 

I still feel fat and ugly.  I know that I am...but I hate feeling that way.  When I was able to work out consistently I felt better, but it was one of those things that I didn't really realize until I wasn't doing it anymore.   I think that knowing that is one of my baby steps I mentioned.  The next baby step I would love to take is to get rid of this cough that way I would feel like working out.  It is hard to get motivated when you feel like you are going to cough up a lung. I know getting over being sick takes time, but I am ready to be well so that I can get healthy!

Til then

EMP

Trying,,,,,Failing....

Still Trying to get over this Crud that I have.  It has been hanging in there for a while now.  Not fun at all.  I get tired just walking to the mailbox.  While it is hanging in I have no energy to do anything.  I and starting to get into a funk, and that makes me eat more than I should.  It is a hideous cycle that I can't seem to break.  Every time I feel like I am making some headway something else comes up to mess we up.  There is so much that I wish I could do that I just can't because the weight is holding me back, but I just really can't seems to shake it.  It has been with me most of my life and I feel like it will always be with me.  I don't want to be like this.  I know it isn't good for me.  I know I need to lose weight.  I know.  I just can't seem to do.  And it is so frustrating.  I know all the right things to do.  I know what I shouldn't be eating.  I know I should be getting more exercise.  But is just isn't happening.  There is a huge difference between knowing that to do and actually doping it.  I have the knowing part down pat.  And I can do the doing part for a little while.  I just really want the whole trying to lose weight thing to be done.  It is all that I have been trying to do for years, and I feel like such a failure!  When all you do is fail, It gets even harder to try!

I Just want this one thing.  Everything else in my life is pretty good.  I Just want to lose weight.  I just need to stop trying...and do...

Til Then,
EMP