One of those days....

I am having one of those days.  You know those days where things just don't seem to be happening the way you plan.  Well that is me today.  I don't really know when things got off track but the are.  I am just kinda sitting around staring off into space and just plain not doing anything. I have no energy no get up and go.  I don't even want to watch t.v.  It really sad, because life is pretty good these days.  I just feel like I am going trough the motions, and not really enjoying it.

I have been battling some type of bug for a few weeks and that has left me tired and cranky.  It seems like this bug got into my system at Christmas and isn't let me go yet.  Every time I start to feel better it attacks again and knocks me down.

It feels like nothing is getting done around my house unless I do it.  I just don't have to will to get things done right now, but I also hate living in the cluttered mess that my home has become.

I did start working out again at the first of the year.  It is going ok.  Even being sick I try to get on the treadmill or bike.  I am enjoying the working out more because we now have a T.V. in our work out room so I am more entertained while working out.  That has helped so much so I am very happy about that.  I just need to get better and have life settle down a bit so I can get into a good routine. 

I guess I just need to settle into a routine.  That would make me happy.  Right now things are just so busy and I hate that I feel like I am running around like crazy and never getting anything done.

Things will get better I do believe that.  I just hope they get better soon...

Til then...
EMP

Early Morning walk!

So got up this morning and went for a walk while the hubby was taking a jog.  It was totally against my will.  Early mornings and cold don't make for a very happy me. But once it was done I felt ok.  I mean it wasn't even 7 am and I had already done 20 minutes of exercise.  Can't beat that now can you. 

I didn't quite get to 5000 steps yesterday. I will today. I figured out how many steps I need each hour that I am awake to get to that.  It is like 420 so that seems do able.  I will just have to walk around the house a few times..not big deal!

Eating was ok yesterday.  I did well considering it was date night. Will do better today. 

After while when I am more awake I am going to get on the exersice bike.  Do a little reading and a little peddling..sounds like fun.

Slow and steady...

Til Then..
EMP

Treadmill...

Just spent some quality time with the treadmill.  That was interesting after a long time apart.  So for day on,going along with the slow and steady concept,  I did a mile in 23 minutes.  Not too shabby.  Not too great.  While on the treadmill I did set my first exercise goal.  I want to do a mile in 20 minutes.  I think that is very manageable.  Once I hit that one, I will set a new one.  Slow and Steady. 

Untill then.
EMP

Back on the wagon again..Hopefully

So here I am again.  Trying this whole weight loss thing....again.  It is so hard.  I know I have picked a hard time to get started again with the Holidays coming, But I knew if I didn't start now then I would just keep eating and keep getting bigger then in the new year things would be even harder. So here I start again. 

I don't really have any grand plans this time.  I am going to move more and eat less and better.  I started to move more part yesterday.  I am adding the eat less today.  I have also decided to try to cut down on the sugar I eat.  I know I can't cut it all out.  I know me too well, but I know that I can eat less sugar everyday.  I don't drink much soda anyway so cutting that out won't be hard, but I am from the South so giving up my sweet tea...well now I just don't know about that.  I am going to do some research into the whole fake sugar stuff.  In the past I wasn't totally impressed  with Splenda but now there are so many more new products to try. 

I am starting to wear my arm band again. That really did help me last time.  I have set smaller goals for myself this time.  I think I was looking to big picture in the past.  Now it is going to be slow and steady I hope.

Well it is off to the treadmill. 
The goal for today in 5000 steps at least. (I know it should be 10,000 but I am starting slow remember)

Will fill you in tomorrow on how it all works out!

EMP

Not as bad as I thought...

Well I finally broke down and hit the scale yesterday.  I was so sure it was going to be horrible.  I mean I haven't worked out in weeks.  Haven't been watching what I eat too closely.  Been sick..so on and so forth.  But it wasn't too bad.  I had gained some weight, but it was only 2 pounds so that wasn't horrible. It even made me feel like working out.  So I did.  I was proud of myself.  Things are still the same.  But that is ok I guess.  One day at a time right?  We will just take baby steps. 

I still feel fat and ugly.  I know that I am...but I hate feeling that way.  When I was able to work out consistently I felt better, but it was one of those things that I didn't really realize until I wasn't doing it anymore.   I think that knowing that is one of my baby steps I mentioned.  The next baby step I would love to take is to get rid of this cough that way I would feel like working out.  It is hard to get motivated when you feel like you are going to cough up a lung. I know getting over being sick takes time, but I am ready to be well so that I can get healthy!

Til then

EMP

Trying,,,,,Failing....

Still Trying to get over this Crud that I have.  It has been hanging in there for a while now.  Not fun at all.  I get tired just walking to the mailbox.  While it is hanging in I have no energy to do anything.  I and starting to get into a funk, and that makes me eat more than I should.  It is a hideous cycle that I can't seem to break.  Every time I feel like I am making some headway something else comes up to mess we up.  There is so much that I wish I could do that I just can't because the weight is holding me back, but I just really can't seems to shake it.  It has been with me most of my life and I feel like it will always be with me.  I don't want to be like this.  I know it isn't good for me.  I know I need to lose weight.  I know.  I just can't seem to do.  And it is so frustrating.  I know all the right things to do.  I know what I shouldn't be eating.  I know I should be getting more exercise.  But is just isn't happening.  There is a huge difference between knowing that to do and actually doping it.  I have the knowing part down pat.  And I can do the doing part for a little while.  I just really want the whole trying to lose weight thing to be done.  It is all that I have been trying to do for years, and I feel like such a failure!  When all you do is fail, It gets even harder to try!

I Just want this one thing.  Everything else in my life is pretty good.  I Just want to lose weight.  I just need to stop trying...and do...

Til Then,
EMP

Life Happens....

It's funny how life gets in the way of best intentions.  That is what has been happening to me lately.  Just when everything was going so well with the eating and working out thing Life happened. 

First it was a change is work schedule that brought our nights to days and days to nights.  When are you sleep deprived you don't feel like working out..let me tell you.

Then it was visits from family...and visiting family.  Traveling...not the best for a schedule.

Now it is being sick.. I mowed our yard a few days ago and it was so much fun.  Being outside walking around pushing a mower for an hour and a half.  I felt great.  Then then pollen and all the dust floating in the air got to me, and I have been down for the count ever since.

So lately life has gotten in the way of my working out.  Right now I am hoping that life gets back on track so I can get back on the treadmill. 

Until then..

EMP