Trying,,,,,Failing....

Still Trying to get over this Crud that I have.  It has been hanging in there for a while now.  Not fun at all.  I get tired just walking to the mailbox.  While it is hanging in I have no energy to do anything.  I and starting to get into a funk, and that makes me eat more than I should.  It is a hideous cycle that I can't seem to break.  Every time I feel like I am making some headway something else comes up to mess we up.  There is so much that I wish I could do that I just can't because the weight is holding me back, but I just really can't seems to shake it.  It has been with me most of my life and I feel like it will always be with me.  I don't want to be like this.  I know it isn't good for me.  I know I need to lose weight.  I know.  I just can't seem to do.  And it is so frustrating.  I know all the right things to do.  I know what I shouldn't be eating.  I know I should be getting more exercise.  But is just isn't happening.  There is a huge difference between knowing that to do and actually doping it.  I have the knowing part down pat.  And I can do the doing part for a little while.  I just really want the whole trying to lose weight thing to be done.  It is all that I have been trying to do for years, and I feel like such a failure!  When all you do is fail, It gets even harder to try!

I Just want this one thing.  Everything else in my life is pretty good.  I Just want to lose weight.  I just need to stop trying...and do...

Til Then,
EMP

Life Happens....

It's funny how life gets in the way of best intentions.  That is what has been happening to me lately.  Just when everything was going so well with the eating and working out thing Life happened. 

First it was a change is work schedule that brought our nights to days and days to nights.  When are you sleep deprived you don't feel like working out..let me tell you.

Then it was visits from family...and visiting family.  Traveling...not the best for a schedule.

Now it is being sick.. I mowed our yard a few days ago and it was so much fun.  Being outside walking around pushing a mower for an hour and a half.  I felt great.  Then then pollen and all the dust floating in the air got to me, and I have been down for the count ever since.

So lately life has gotten in the way of my working out.  Right now I am hoping that life gets back on track so I can get back on the treadmill. 

Until then..

EMP

Times

5 miles on exercise bike times:
Tue the 9th 16:30
Wen the 10th 17:20 (went up a resistance level)
Thur the 11th 17:45
Sat 13th 16:20
long break
Tue the 16th 16:15
Wen the 17th 15:55
Thur the 18th 16:30

Not too shabby...

Treadmill one mile times
Tue the 9th 17:48
Wen the 10th 17:50
Thur the 11th17:15
Long break
Wen the 17th 16:35
Thur the 18th 16:16 (jogged for a full half mile!!!)

Over all I am very pleased.  I know I have a few longs breaks in there..but it was Valentines weekend so I gave myself a break.  Anyways..I am feeling good about things.  I am eating what I should..even if it is no fun..I do miss the old way of eating..and it is so easy to go back.  I am working on a balance of eating right and treating myself..

Will keep you posted..

Till then..
EMP

Very Excited!

Just a really quick post to say that today I ran on the Treadmill for half a mile.  I was so excited..and shocked.  I was slowly adding more running time on to my mile..but had no thought about trying to go for a whole half mile yet...but it just kinda happened and I couldn't be more pleased.  My times on both the bike and the treadmill are going down steadily.  It is so exciting!  I will come back later and post my times for the past few weeks.  Can't wait to do a weigh in next week and see how the scale is going..

Till then..

EMP

Quick tidbit

The last thing I want to do today is work out.   I have already done my 5 miles on the bike...and the thought of getting on the treadmill makes me want to cry.  I have been doing so well with the working out.  I have been having fun with and enjoying it.  I guess there will be days like today where I just don't want to do it. I have to push thorough that and do it anyways!  I am seeing results in the scale and in my times.  So I am very happy about that.  Results are always a good thing.  Even the hubby said I look a little different already..that was really nice.  So here I go..off to the dreaded tredmill.  Twenty minutes won't kill me.  I know that...



Until next time..

EMP.

going good...for a change..

Just got done with todays working out.  I am doing pretty good.  This new plan seems to be working.  I am done working out in the morning...and that leaves the rest of the day.  I haven't yet hit the point where working out gives me all this energy, but I am hoping that happens soon.

I thought I would post the past week Times..

Treadmill Mile times.
Tuesday 21:20
Wen. 19:29
Thursday 19:09
Friday 19:12
Saturday I took the day off..
Sun18:42
Monday 18:09
They are getting better and better.  It is really nice to see those times going down.

Bike Five miles time
Tues. 17:45
Wen. 17:25
Thur. 17:45
Fri 16:05
Saturday and sunday Off
Mon.  16:18
These are staying consistent.  It is hard to pedal faster.  I am working on it..

I did a weekly weigh in and the scale hasn't changed. I am trying not to let it get to me.  I see the mile times changing and that makes me happy for now. I have to trust that at some point that will start showing up on the scale too.
I have been writing down all my food..and that is no fun.  It is sad for me to realize what a portion size on some food actually is.  It is smaller than you would think.  I only had one day where I was really hungry.  Anyways that is where I am right now. 

Time to relax and Listen to some good music.  I love the Zac Brown Band!

Something new..

So I started something new today.   I was on the treadmill first thing this morning.  I was hoping to get mostly done before I woke up..and you know what...it worked.  I was about half way done before I was all the way awake.  That was kinda nice.  I am only doing  a mile first thing in the morning.  So today I did that mile in 21:20. I am going to keep track of my mile times and keep working on getting it faster.

Also today I did five miles on the exercise bike. I did that in 17:45, and then kept going at a slower pace to equal 20 minutes total..  As with the treadmill mile I am going to be working on getting that five miles faster and on hard levels. 

For some reason thinking in the short times makes me feel like I am not working out much at all.  But I am doing at least 20 minutes on each piece of equipment.

I am going to add 20 minutes with my Wii once I get new batteries for the remotes.

I am really hoping these short intrevals will help me reach my big goals. 

On the eating front..I have gone back to measuring out my food.  I was doing really good when I took the time to measure it out.  So we will see if that helps again this time.  I am also writing everything thing done in my GoWear fit prgram.  I have started wearing my armband again and I remember how motiviating it was wearting it.

I went to the Doctor the other day and with the help of the meds my blood pressure was good.  Now I just need to drop some pounds so I can get off the medicine.

Here is to hoping all this will stick this time..

Untill then..

EMP