Boredom, Eating, and Hopes...

Today is starting off on the right foot. I ate a good breakfast...now I already have my workout clothes on so I will be ready to go as soon as breakfast is settled.

I have all my meals planned for today so that is good. I just have to keep busy and not give into the unplanned snacking that normally happens between lunch and dinner. I always get really hungry then even if I have had an afternoon snack, but I really don't think it is as much hunger as it is boredom..so I have to find something to fill that time that will keep me out of the kitchen.

Right now I am taking things slowly and taking them one day at a time. They always say that slow and steady wins the race. Well I am hoping that it will help me win the race for my life back. I hate being tied down by my weight. There is so much more I want to do with my life. I really hate that there are things that I won't do because I am embarrassed...I want to do more with my hubby..he deserves a more adventurous wife. I will get there...I have too.

Until...

EMP

Once more with feeling...

So here I am again..

Starting over...again...

And already off the wagon again..

I wish I knew why I did this. I know what I need to do I just don't do it..

I feel though, that if I don't do it this time I won't ever do it. I don't know why I feel that way I just do. I gained back all the weight I had lost for the last time..and then some. I hope that it will come off easier then I think it will.

It is so frustrating to know what needs to be done but just not do it. I know when I am doing the wrong things...but I do them anyways. Why do I feel the need to sabotage myself?

So here I am back at square one, or maybe even further back then that...

I know it starts with the first step...I just need to take that step..and stop making excuses.

It is no or never..

Till next time..

EMP....

Yeah...opps...

Well here I am...Still living..still not losing weight...still need too...still...still.still...


I know I know..I need to get my butt going...I will I promise. Soon...


I know soon..I have said that before..and I have meant it before...

I know I know...


Taking it one day at a time..

EMP

Progeress

For a change...no news is good news. I am actually doing well...really well. I have lots 10 pounds in two weeks. I am so pumped. It hasn't been easy..but I am doing it. I have been working out really hard, and eating better. Still need to work on the eating, but slowly it is getting there. I still have days when I just eat the wrong stuff. And I know I am eating the wrong stuff...and I really don't care.

I love my armband. It has really helped me see that I wasn't moving around during the day as much as I thought. I find myself doing laps around inside my house just to get more movement in. I fell guilty if I am sitting still. I love having the instant data about how many calories I am burning versus how many I am eating.

Goals for this week.

1. Work out everyday-introduce even more running on the treadmill.
2. Eat Better-don't go over the calorie allotment for the day.
3. Reach 5000 steps at least a day.
4. Lose 4 pounds!

Wish me Luck!

EMP

Doing well.....

Things are going good here. I am wearing my new GoWear armband and I totally love it. It has really helped to motivate me to move more. I love being able to plug it in and see my progress. I am even doing well logging my food, even if I am embarrassed about what I ate that day!

I am seeing a little movement on the scale and that makes me really happy! I will take any movement in the right direction. I am not wanting things to go fast. I know that slow and steady wins the race and I am in for a marathon. But I really am hopeful that it is going to happened this time.

On the other side of life...things are stressful so it is hard not to comfort eat. We are getting ready to make a huge move and we don't have too much time to get everything together. Me and stress don't get along that well. So the next few months are really going to be a test of my will power. I am really lucky to have a husband that will do anything for me, and he wants the best for me so I know he will be there with me every step of the way. He is even eating healthier foods. They haven't all be that tasty, but he is trying them all with me..and I love him for that.

I guess that is about all for now...

Wish me Luck...

EMP

Keep Moving....

That is my new motto. I wore my GoWear yesterday. I LOVE IT! I didn't wear it today because I need I bigger band for it. Yes I have big arms. I have ordered a new band for it..and I hope it will be here next week. Then I will be good to go.

I have enjoyed logging my food...well I did until I got to the end of the day and actually so how many calories I ate. OPPS...really need to work on that. It was very bad! I am going to sit down this weekend and really plan my eating for next week. I want to get some better for you snacks in the house. I have a few new cook books to go through that are Healthy cookbooks..so that is exciting..I love to try new meals.

I worked out with my Wii yesterday..and boy was I sore today. I loved it. I miss being sore because I know it means I did something yesterday!

I tried to ride my exercise bike...but my feet were hurting...they have never hurt on the bike before...so I think it was left over from the Wii..because you don't wear shoes on the Wii Fit board. Anyways...at least I did something so that made me happy.

I will be back on the Wii Fit board tomorrow...and we will see how it goes..


till then...

EMP

Off the wagon....but still trying...

I am so far off the wagon...that I can't even see it in the distance. Yes I am back...and Yes I am going to try this again. I am going to do my best to catch up to the wagon and Jump back on with both feet.

I have been super busy the past few months, and even though things don't seem to be calming down I have to do something about my health. I am now on blood pressure medicine, and I don't really like it. I know that it is what I need to do for me. But it still makes me angry. I think it has helped. I was feeling dizzy and light headed sometimes, but since taking the medicine that has gone away. I am going to a blood pressure check tomorrow so I am hoping for good news.

The bad news is the past few weeks I have gained about 5 pounds. We were on vacation and it is really hard to eat right and exercise while on vacation. Not that it is over I am back to working out. And eating better.

I have a new tool to help me. I splurged and bought the GoWearfit armband. It will help monitor my activity and calories burned. With the help of the website I will also be logging my food again. That is scary for me. I am going to try not to cheat, which I have done in the past. I will make a pledge to log everything I eat...no cheating.

I thought I was serious about this before. But I guess I wasn't as serious as I thought. I really want to do this now because I don't want to be a slave to medicine for the rest of my life. There is so much I want to do and I know that my weight and self esteem is holding me back. I can't let that happened anymore. I owe it to my Husband, but most importantly I owe it to myself to be the best I can be.

Wish me Luck!

EMP