Boredom, Eating, and Hopes...

Today is starting off on the right foot. I ate a good breakfast...now I already have my workout clothes on so I will be ready to go as soon as breakfast is settled.

I have all my meals planned for today so that is good. I just have to keep busy and not give into the unplanned snacking that normally happens between lunch and dinner. I always get really hungry then even if I have had an afternoon snack, but I really don't think it is as much hunger as it is boredom..so I have to find something to fill that time that will keep me out of the kitchen.

Right now I am taking things slowly and taking them one day at a time. They always say that slow and steady wins the race. Well I am hoping that it will help me win the race for my life back. I hate being tied down by my weight. There is so much more I want to do with my life. I really hate that there are things that I won't do because I am embarrassed...I want to do more with my hubby..he deserves a more adventurous wife. I will get there...I have too.

Until...

EMP

Once more with feeling...

So here I am again..

Starting over...again...

And already off the wagon again..

I wish I knew why I did this. I know what I need to do I just don't do it..

I feel though, that if I don't do it this time I won't ever do it. I don't know why I feel that way I just do. I gained back all the weight I had lost for the last time..and then some. I hope that it will come off easier then I think it will.

It is so frustrating to know what needs to be done but just not do it. I know when I am doing the wrong things...but I do them anyways. Why do I feel the need to sabotage myself?

So here I am back at square one, or maybe even further back then that...

I know it starts with the first step...I just need to take that step..and stop making excuses.

It is no or never..

Till next time..

EMP....