I am still here..and still committed...just been super busy today...but it was a good day. I tried to eat the best I could. We had some people over for dinner tonight and that was fun. Just need some sleep and back to it in the morning...
EMP
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Trying to find my way...
I know I didn't post yesterday, when I started this I wanted to try to post everyday. Yesterday just seemed to slip away from me. I did pretty good yesterday, I worked out really hard. Still need to ramp up the working out. I ate pretty well. So it was all pretty decent.
Today is going well so far. Just got done working out, going to do some cleaning so that will burn a few more calories. My big problem today is I don't know what I am eating for Lunch. I want to figure that out before I hit the kitchen so I know exactly what I am doing and I won't be searching and nibbling while I try to sort it all out.
Things have been stressful here so I am trying really hard to to eat my way through the stress. This is huge for me. I am used to going to food for comfort, so this is a big change. Some days it works and some days it doesn't. I just want more days that it works.
We are going to be having company for the next few weeks so that is going to be fun, but at the same time I will be doing more cooking and more eating out. I have to find time to get in some type of work out. It is going to be hard...but it will all be ok too. I look forward to having Hubby off work that will be nice.
I am going to start weighing in on Fridays. So tomorrow will be the first day. I am scare to see where I am at right now. But it will also me good to know how far I have to do. I will be posting all those numbers...gotta keep myself honest even though it scares the crap out of me!
EMP
Today is going well so far. Just got done working out, going to do some cleaning so that will burn a few more calories. My big problem today is I don't know what I am eating for Lunch. I want to figure that out before I hit the kitchen so I know exactly what I am doing and I won't be searching and nibbling while I try to sort it all out.
Things have been stressful here so I am trying really hard to to eat my way through the stress. This is huge for me. I am used to going to food for comfort, so this is a big change. Some days it works and some days it doesn't. I just want more days that it works.
We are going to be having company for the next few weeks so that is going to be fun, but at the same time I will be doing more cooking and more eating out. I have to find time to get in some type of work out. It is going to be hard...but it will all be ok too. I look forward to having Hubby off work that will be nice.
I am going to start weighing in on Fridays. So tomorrow will be the first day. I am scare to see where I am at right now. But it will also me good to know how far I have to do. I will be posting all those numbers...gotta keep myself honest even though it scares the crap out of me!
EMP
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Day Seven....Falling off the wagon..
Yes already things are not going well. I don't know what it was about today but I just couldn't get in the grove or the mood to do anything. I was a slug all day. I didn't work out and I didn't eat good, that bread and Mayo I just couldn't say no. I was emotional eating. I know, but even knowing didn't help. The sad part is I am not sure what happened today. I just woke up in a strange mood and it never got better. I am not going to let this derail me. I am just going to have to jump back into it tomorrow. I know I can't have many days like today and still succeed. I have to figure out what was going on today and try to figure out what I could have done differently. There is alot going on in my life these days, but I need to transfer that into energy not lethargy. All in all I still feel positive and hopeful about what I am trying to do. If I can just hang on to that hope then maybe I will make it this time..
EMP
EMP
Monday, March 23, 2009
Day Six..Getting in the groove....
Today has been an okay day. I did about half the working out that I wanted to, but it seems like real life gets in the way sometimes. I have done pretty good on eating I think. Trying my best to stay away from bread, cheese and Mayo, but it really is a struggle knowing that they are there and so easy to get to. I have actually made my self clean things today so that I wouldn't eat. I have to just push through and get over this first hump of not eating as much. It will get easier as I go. It has too. I have to work hard this evening at not being cranky towards the hubby because I am hungry. It isn't his fault. Anyways, that is where I am right now.
EMP
EMP
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Day Five, Time for the Why Now...
So the question of the day is why now? Why have I started this whole blog about getting healthy now. Well the answer is simple.
A few months ago I had a health scare. I ended up in the emergency room with chest pains. I am only 30 years old..that should not be happening to me. Thankfully all the test came back ok. When I had a follow up visit with my primary care Doctor I was informed that my blood pressure was on the high side. He gave me a few weeks to diet and exercise to see if I can't bring it down with out medicines. So it has not been a few months..and I am afraid to go back and see him again (stupid I know) but I didn't do what I was supposed to do. Even knowing that my health was at risk didn't kick my butt into gear and get the whole workout thing going like I should. How stupid am I?
So that is part of why I decided to blog. I feel that if I put my intentions out in the cyber space it will help me do what I need to do. I don't want to be stupid and not lose weight and have something happened to me that I can prevent. I don't want to leave my husband. I want to grow old with him.
Thankfully I have a hugely supportive husband. He loves me the way I am, but knows that I really don't like myself this way. We are going to work on this together. That will help me, because I never want to let him down.
So that is why I want to do this. I have tried so many times, but I have never even told anyone that I was trying so that if I failed they wouldn't know.
Tomorrow starts the big change. I have already started working out everyday, but tomorrow will start the better eating and the more exercise. Also on this lovely blog tomorrow I will outline what my goals are for working out everyday. I have to be held accountable. I know I can do it this time. It feels different for some reason.
EMP
A few months ago I had a health scare. I ended up in the emergency room with chest pains. I am only 30 years old..that should not be happening to me. Thankfully all the test came back ok. When I had a follow up visit with my primary care Doctor I was informed that my blood pressure was on the high side. He gave me a few weeks to diet and exercise to see if I can't bring it down with out medicines. So it has not been a few months..and I am afraid to go back and see him again (stupid I know) but I didn't do what I was supposed to do. Even knowing that my health was at risk didn't kick my butt into gear and get the whole workout thing going like I should. How stupid am I?
So that is part of why I decided to blog. I feel that if I put my intentions out in the cyber space it will help me do what I need to do. I don't want to be stupid and not lose weight and have something happened to me that I can prevent. I don't want to leave my husband. I want to grow old with him.
Thankfully I have a hugely supportive husband. He loves me the way I am, but knows that I really don't like myself this way. We are going to work on this together. That will help me, because I never want to let him down.
So that is why I want to do this. I have tried so many times, but I have never even told anyone that I was trying so that if I failed they wouldn't know.
Tomorrow starts the big change. I have already started working out everyday, but tomorrow will start the better eating and the more exercise. Also on this lovely blog tomorrow I will outline what my goals are for working out everyday. I have to be held accountable. I know I can do it this time. It feels different for some reason.
EMP
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Nice Quite Day Four...
So Far today has been nice. Went for a bike ride with the hubby, and now we are going to settle in to watch some television. I really can't think of a more perfect day. Relaxing with my Hubby...ahhh...Sweet!
EMP
EMP
Friday, March 20, 2009
Day Three...
Here we are on Day Three of this thrilling Blog. So I think I am going to treat this blog like therapy. Anything I have on my chest I am going to get it off here. The biggest topic these days for me is weight loss. I know fun topic, but it is true. I have issues, BIG issues, and I think (I hope) I am ready to finally deal with them.
I have done the weight loss things a few times. I am hoping this will be the last time I start trying to lose weight. About a year ago I did really well and lost about 40 pounds in 4 months. Not too shabby, but since then I have gain about 15 or so of that back. I don't mind the working out part. I just have issues with the whole eating right thing. I love food, and I love to cook. I have a Husband that loves to eat the food that I cook. So I have to figure out how to cook healthier meals that we both like to eat and to eat smaller portions of the foods that aren't so good. I have read many books on what I should and shouldn't be doing. Now I just have to start doing it. That really is the hardest part the actual doing of the right things. It is really hard to give up the way I eat now. I love all the foods I cook, I mean if I didn't why would I waste my time to cook them.
Since I started rambling about food, I guess I will talk about the foods that I just don't need to keep in my house. If there are here...I will eat them..too much of them. So here is a list...
1. Peanut Butter- I love this stuff. I can eat it out of the jar with a spoon! I love to toast some bread and just eat Peanut butter and bread. My hubby finally figured this out..and I am happy to report that I have been off the butter for two months now, and yes I miss it.
2. Bread- I am a breadaholic. If there is bread in the house..I will eat it. I do try to get the healthy bread..so that is a good thing, it is kinda surprising that my hubby hasn't asked why we run out of bread so fast.
3. Mayo-I know I know..it is really bad for you. But I LOVE me some Mayo. Like the Peanut butter I can slather it on the before mentioned bread and eat just Mayo and bread. I know..it is SOOO wrong..but I really can't seem to stop myself. I need to ditch the Mayo. I really do.
4. Chocolate- I really don't keep much in my house so that is a good thing. We do eat mostly Dark Chocolate, which is better for you. That isn't too bad I guess.
5. Cheese- I love cheese, all types of cheese. I love cheese on bread with Mayo (See a pattern here?)
I guess there are my Top five go to when I need a food fix. When I lost that weight a year ago, I didn't have any of those things in my house. If it wasn't here I didn't eat it. I have a really hard time with self control. I get a craving in my head and that is all I think about until I eat whatever it is I am craving. It doesn't matter how much other food I eat, until I eat the food I am craving I will still think I am hungry (told you I have issues).
So see, I need to figure out some things, and I am hoping that talking them out will help me. In the next few days I will explain why now. And get into goal and dreams.
Thanks for Listening...
EMP
I have done the weight loss things a few times. I am hoping this will be the last time I start trying to lose weight. About a year ago I did really well and lost about 40 pounds in 4 months. Not too shabby, but since then I have gain about 15 or so of that back. I don't mind the working out part. I just have issues with the whole eating right thing. I love food, and I love to cook. I have a Husband that loves to eat the food that I cook. So I have to figure out how to cook healthier meals that we both like to eat and to eat smaller portions of the foods that aren't so good. I have read many books on what I should and shouldn't be doing. Now I just have to start doing it. That really is the hardest part the actual doing of the right things. It is really hard to give up the way I eat now. I love all the foods I cook, I mean if I didn't why would I waste my time to cook them.
Since I started rambling about food, I guess I will talk about the foods that I just don't need to keep in my house. If there are here...I will eat them..too much of them. So here is a list...
1. Peanut Butter- I love this stuff. I can eat it out of the jar with a spoon! I love to toast some bread and just eat Peanut butter and bread. My hubby finally figured this out..and I am happy to report that I have been off the butter for two months now, and yes I miss it.
2. Bread- I am a breadaholic. If there is bread in the house..I will eat it. I do try to get the healthy bread..so that is a good thing, it is kinda surprising that my hubby hasn't asked why we run out of bread so fast.
3. Mayo-I know I know..it is really bad for you. But I LOVE me some Mayo. Like the Peanut butter I can slather it on the before mentioned bread and eat just Mayo and bread. I know..it is SOOO wrong..but I really can't seem to stop myself. I need to ditch the Mayo. I really do.
4. Chocolate- I really don't keep much in my house so that is a good thing. We do eat mostly Dark Chocolate, which is better for you. That isn't too bad I guess.
5. Cheese- I love cheese, all types of cheese. I love cheese on bread with Mayo (See a pattern here?)
I guess there are my Top five go to when I need a food fix. When I lost that weight a year ago, I didn't have any of those things in my house. If it wasn't here I didn't eat it. I have a really hard time with self control. I get a craving in my head and that is all I think about until I eat whatever it is I am craving. It doesn't matter how much other food I eat, until I eat the food I am craving I will still think I am hungry (told you I have issues).
So see, I need to figure out some things, and I am hoping that talking them out will help me. In the next few days I will explain why now. And get into goal and dreams.
Thanks for Listening...
EMP
Thursday, March 19, 2009
A busy Day Two...
Well today is day two of this little journey, and it is a busy day. I am getting closer to figuring this whole deal out and hope to soon be brave enough to say what I feel like I need to say. I know very cryptic. I guess in the big scheme of life what I have to say isn't that important. But to me it is. I really don't even care if anyone reads what I write. I think just writing it and having it out there will be helpful to me. And that really is the purpose for this blog.
EMP
EMP
Day One...
This is the first day of putting myself out there. I am still not sure what this blog will turn out to be. I have some ideas, but nothing concrete as of yet. I think it is going to take some time to figure it all out. So bear with me as I stumble through this new world...
EMP
EMP
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